Monday, February 17, 2014
A friend once said that I look excited the most when I'm talking about writing.
Ever since I was a kid (7-8 years old), I had shown interest in writing. I showed my love to read earlier before that time. The first story I tried to write is a horror story (I laugh whenever I remember this). This doesn't stop until today and, people, this means two things at the same time.
My bad habit of starting something without any idea how to end it stays the same. Ideas run in my head, I write them down, but ends up not finishing them as well.
My imagination keeps expanding and I've tried to write for horror, romance, angst, and fantasy theme. I always try to write at the best state I can do.
To be honest, I have low self-esteem. I often feel I can't do anything better than others. I feel like I'm just an average person (or, even worse, lacking in everything).
I'm easily feel hurt by people's opinion during most discussion (unless I know them very well) but, strangely, this doesn't apply when it comes to writing. I don't take challenges much but, once again, if it's about writing, it is different for me.
So what is this all about?
Let's keep it short for v.1. I'll give more details in v.2.
Here I leave a question for you; my answer will be on next post.
Imagine that, two years in the future, you are reading a magazine. You find the headline news with your smiling picture and words about your life.
What kind of article is it about?
(inspired by David Sibet's method; not mine)
Saturday, February 08, 2014
Before I start writing down whatever I mean with the post title, let me wish all of us a happy Lunar New Year! Yes, I did celebrate it on 31 January 2014. Hopefully this new year will bring us even brighter and more wonderful moments. ;)
Also, just doing a quick recap, January is pretty much a colorful month to start 2014.
After kidnapped until the first morning of New Year and going for dinner to PIK at the evening, I had the chance to watch "The Secret Life of Walter Mitty" (RECOMMENDED! You should watch this movie!) with one of my best friend (who is also one of my most favorite authors) whom I knew since elementary school, Chris, on the first Monday of 2014.
I went to Singapore for 4 days and 3 night with my Mom (I considered it as a belated Mother's Day's present for her) on 12 to 15 January 2014 (FYI, I went to Puncak on 10 and 11, along with cold and headache). Meanwhile part of Jakarta was attacked with flood. The flood filled the first floor of my house again on 15 to 18. It happened again on the next week and then again two or three days ago (do not ask me what is wrong with my environment; have no idea).
Good news? My one-package-friend, Brenda, told me that she will be graduated officially from her second university (yes, second it is) tomorrow on 8 February 2014! Congratulations, my soulmate! You're indeed a magical person!
Okay. That's all for the January recap. Now move on to my post title.
I just feel like blogging tonight yet I don't really know what I'm going to write. This post will be somewhat similar to the Trivia About Me here but, well, perhaps a little bit longer and detailed.
So... shall we start this random post of mine?
Here's the intermezzo.
Some said that women are complicated. I often heard that women have hearts as deep as the ocean. Men often complain about this and, knowing that (most) men are pretty simple regarding everything, I can understand the complaining. I really do because, even though I'm a woman, I still find that women's complexity is very amusing most of the time.
Anyone's here with me?
I am not going to deny that I'm quite complicated as well yet, from my very own opinion, I find myself somehow simple. How simple am I? How far do I go in complicated level?
I am an introvert who loves to talk and meet new people.
For people whom I just meet, some might guess I'm an extrovert but, no, I'm a pure introvert.
I love to spend my time alone, reading book, writing something, listening to music. Sometimes I even go to the cinema to watch movies alone. I can spend hours walking around (or at the bookstores) without bothering whether I have companion or else.
However I also love to have new experiences, meeting new people with different personalities. I love to share stories and opinions, having more perspectives in life for various aspects. Sure I prefer spending my weekends over with my close friends just to do nothing (or watching whatever videos at their places or going for random walk at nearby malls or anything else), but I really don't mind to try something new that interests me.
I'm not going to acknowledge myself as a very good listener but I guess I'm not a bad one either. I like to listen when others talk. I keep myself to think from different point of views at the same time. I also like to exchange thoughts with others, having the desire to know about what they think about my thought and more.
But (yes, there's a but here) I don't just talk to whoever around me.
I am not picky when it comes to friendship but I do have my personal preferences when we're talking about best friends. For me, the friendship level starts from an acquaintance to a friend to a good friend to a best friend.
Okay, I'll talk about trust on next edition.
I am very positive toward others but have the bad habit of self-blame.
This is possibly just my own personal opinion but, among my friends, I'm quite positive thinking. When one does something bad, I try my best to think of a good reason behind the act.
"Maybe he is having a trouble..." "I think she didn't mean it that way..." "They are busy..."
Whenever my friend is too emotional up to the state that he/she starts to blame the people, I usually react calmly, telling him/her that we're supposed to be objective when facing a trouble. Sure, being subjective is not a sin but, well, like one once said, everyone is fighting their own war everyday so we don't need to act like we're the ones with biggest problem on the Earth, do we?
Unfortunately this positive-thinking-attitude of mine doesn't apply for myself.
To be honest, I think I'm better in throwing complaints against myself instead of feeling proud of what I've done. When something goes wrong, I put the blame on myself just because I think it makes everything feels better. Weird, eh?
When someone asks me a question and I can't give an answer, I feel that it's my fault.
When someone needs my help but I'm not able to do it, I feel that it's my fault.
When someone has expectation from me but I can't fulfill it, I feel that it's my fault.
When someone ends a conversation when I think it's not finished yet, I feel that it's my fault.
When someone points out my mistake even though he/she tells me it's alright, I feel guilty.
I guess I just have the principle to never blame others for a problem but, then again, I still need someone to be accused of for the wrong. I choose myself over everyone else. I guess it's the most possible answer.
No, it's not a good habit. It's definitely a bad one. Some of my friends have reminded me of this but I think it will take quite a while for me to get rid of this habit. I'll try my best to decrease it but, no worry, I rarely display this too much to people around me.
Unless I put my faith upon you. Let's talk about it on the next edition, okay?
Until then, people. Have a blessed life. ;)
Sunday, February 02, 2014
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand;
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed You most, You would leave me."
The Lord replied,
"My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints.
It was then that I carried you."
This story is taken from Afterhours Inspirational Stories.
Most of our difficult times, we often seek for God and question His presence. Why do He give us such difficulties in life? Where is He when we're struggling?
I am a person who believe that God will never give us something that we can't handle.
He gives us enough for everything.
He gives us time. He gives us life lessons. He gives us what we need.
He gives us love above all.
Whenever you're facing a problem, remember that God never leaves you.
However, please remember, that we shouldn't leave God as well because He will carry us through anything as long as we're with Him.
Have blessed days ahead, everyone! ;)
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Saturday, February 01, 2014
I dreamed I had an interview with God.
"Come in," God said. "So, you would like to interview Me?"
"If you have the time," I said.
God smiled and said "My time is eternity. It is enough to do everything. What questions do you have in mind to ask me?"
I asked, "What surprises you most about mankind?"
God thought for a few moments and then answered,
"That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again.
That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health.
That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor the future.
That they live as if they will never die, and they die as if they had never lived"
God placed my hands in His and we were silent for while. Then I asked,
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"
God replied with a smile,
"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved.
To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives, but whom they have in their lives.
To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. All will be judged individually on their own merits, not as a group on a comparison basis.
To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.
To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to heal them.
To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness. To learn that there are persons that love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings.
To learn that money can buy everything but happiness.
To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally differently.
To learn that a true friend is someone who knows everything about them... and likes them anyway.
To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they have to forgive themselves."
I sat there for awhile enjoying my visit with God.
I thanked Him for His time and for all that He has done for my family and me.
"Anytime. I'm here 24 hours a day. All you have to do is ask for me,
and I'll answer."
This story is taken from Afterhours Inspirational Stories.
Moral of the story?
Have you been grateful for what you have?
Have you been thankful for your time in this world?
If you haven't, do remember that God is always be with you.
With all of His time. With of all His goodness. With all of His love.
Ask for Him and He will answer.
Have a blessed February. :)
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