Ministry of Zero

I have a lot of friend since I was in kindergarten.
Oh yeah, as long as they know my name and I know theirs,
as long as they want to talk to me,
all of them are my friends.

I have some close friends,
who share same interests and laugh along with me.
It's always fun to share stories, jokes, and have fun with them.

I have no more than ten people that so-called "best friends" for me.
Everyone has the criteria of best friend and I have mine.
They taught me a lot of things through joy and sorrow.


One of them taught me that friendship is not how about how long you know your best friend.
It's not about how much you see each other,
but it's about how would you try to understand each other.


The others taught me that friendship can pass even the farthest distance.
You might not have a long chit-chat with them like what you do with your close friends,
but you'll never forget them and you'll always miss your moments with them.


The others taught me that life is about everything.
Love, work, friendship, fun, gossips, college.
It's about how you respect each other even though you are different from your friends.

There's someone who taught me that life sometimes will act out of my expectations,
but I can blame my life but I must try to do my best in every situation.
My best friend taught me to think as wise as possible.

Yet there's a friend, I don't know if this friend thinks that I'm a friend too,
who taught me that life is so unfair.
I got it, life is always unfair,
but that's not the problem.
The problem is how can I survive in this so unfair world and understand that life sometimes can be cruel.


The last, with this friend,
I learned to be very patient because I could be emotionally impatient back then.
I tried to act more mature as time goes by.

But I felt so hurt when I learned about the truth of this friend.
For so long I thought I know my friend,
but the truth is I don't even know my friend's thought.


A friend is not someone who must fulfill your wishes.
The most important thing is how much you want and you try to fulfill your friends' wishes.


I never complained if my friends couldn't be there for me.
Yeah, disappointed maybe, but they have a life as well.
It's not like I always can be there for them all the time.

I couldn't even angry if they failed my hopes.
I did feel sad but how could I mad at them for they're living their lives the fullest.

I could cry if they said harsh words for me when I was in problems,
but I got it because they tried to teach me that life is not all about good stuff.

I know we're different.
I know we're living in two different paths of life.
I know there are times we will fight.


But a friend is not something who will come and go when you ask.
A true friend will understand you but not tolerate you every time.

A true friend will do the best for you,
so you can be better to be yourself,
so you will know that life can't be perfectly like what you want,
so you will learn to be wise.


Some said that it's hurt so much when your lover says something harsh towards you,
but I feel that when your friend said harsh words, it's more painful.


In time, be wise,
as I am going to reflect to myself because I know I'm not perfect as well.
It's not for myself,
but it's for your good.

Maybe I'm not your best friend.
I'm not the friend you've always expected...

but, trust me, you'll never know how much tears that filled my days.

It's alright.

You are you, after all.

:)

A friend is a present for your life.
A close friend is a joy in your life.
A best friend is a miracle.