Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Monday, August 11, 2014

‡ 「Dear You -Kind-」 ‡

Continuation of random (short) drabble inspired by Dear You, OST for Higurashi no Naku Koro ni anime.

Read the previous : -Cry- | -Feel-

Hope you will enjoy the new one of -Kind-

________________________________________

-Kind-




I believe, but in the corner of my mind
There is a shadow of uneasiness 


You promised me that you would wait.
 

I wanted to believe, but I couldn't. 
 


The warmth would always stay by me

I was a child who didn't suspect anything
I swallow my tears and bite my lip
So I can laugh that I've gotten stronger 


The messages stopped coming.

The calls never came.
The voice began to fade. 

Whenever I closed my eyes and remembered you, I felt like I wanted to cry.

But I smiled, knowing that you wanted me to be strong.


Please, tell me that the warmth of your hand isn't a lie

Call my name in a gentle voice, don't leave me alone anymore 


Was that a lie when you told me you loved me?

Were those just sweet words when you said you would wait for me?


Call my name.

Stay with me.
Where are you now? 


I've shouted out my wish and prayers

But my voice never reaches


I prayed and prayed.

I wished and wished.
I cried and cried.
But you didn't hear me.


You're too far now that someone else's voice reached you.


Now even though I cannot see you

You're always there for me
Your kindness melts into the sunshine
Happiness never ends, and it stays with me 


I don't know where you are now.

I can't see you anymore now.
I already miss your smile now.


 But my heart remembers everything.
Your smile. Your warmth. Your kindness.

Your everything. 

 

There are so many things I didn't notice and only realized when it was gone

I want to play on the bed and sleep in your arms


I never realized how much I treasured you.

I never noticed that I couldn't live without you.
I never thought that you would be gone.

I want to be with you again. 

 

When I meet with you again

Say 'I'm home', smile and pat my head
I'm still dreaming, in this little place
Waiting for the day you'll draw me close


In my dream, you're waiting for me. 


I couldn't believe, but I wanted to.



-End-

Friday, August 08, 2014

‡ 「Dear You -Feel-」 ‡

Continuation of random (short) drabble inspired by Dear You, OST for Higurashi no Naku Koro ni anime.

Read the previous : -Cry-

Hope you will enjoy the new one of -Feel-

________________________________________

-Feel-





I didn't tell you about the wound in my heart
And only kneeled down at the approaching pain



It was hurt.

But I would say nothing and just pray.


Two people held the same mind
You and I were one
Something that two people got by becoming one
That wasn't what we had wanted



None of us needed to tell what we were thinking.
Each of us knew what we would say to each other.

We became one just like two sides of a coin.
So close but never saw one another.

It wasn't what we wanted.


The thing that crawled on the dirtied back
Was the sin that had caused the unhealing wound
I can't reach the past days even when I chase it



I was supposed to walk away from you.
You were not belonged together with me.

No matter how far I ran to reach you, I just couldn't.


Please, under the light breeze and sun
Smile like that



As you stood under the sun, I would stand under the moonlight.
You smiled gently with those eyes reflecting love.

Love for someone else.


To protect this warm place
I'll try to change anything
Because we live to make tomorrow
We pursue happiness every day



The memories never faded away.
You had gone to somewhere else but I stayed.
I stayed to try, to change, to live for tomorrow.

For happiness.


Just the thirty-five degrees of heat from your hand
Can make me this strong
I won't shed any tears



If one day you held my hand again then I'd be strong.
Your warmth would be enough and I'd promise you.

I won't cry.


I didn't tell you about the wound in my heart
And only kneeled down at the approaching pain
But as the seasons wait for no one
Let's walk over the pain, onto tomorrow


It was still hurt now.

But I still would say nothing and just pray.


-End-

Thursday, August 07, 2014

‡ 「Dear You -Cry-」 ‡

For anyone expecting an article about love after reading the title, then the answer is no.
For anyone wondering why the word '-Cry-' is doing after the sweetest opening 'Dear You', I have prepared the details below.

There is this anime titled Higurashi no Naku Koro ni (ひぐらしのなく頃に / Higurashi When They Cry). I think I watched the series around 6-7 years ago and I really recommend this to everyone; although, for your information, it's not a cheerful, cute, funny anime. Actually it's quite complex and, well, sick.

I'll leave it with the word 'sick'. You'll figure it why if you watch it.

I'm not going to review the anime or spoil anything about it here but there's this one song title I really like. Actually it's not just one song; there are four of them (plus another original mix, so there are five!).

All share the same musical notes but different lyrics and feels.
If you don't know yet, I have tendency to write when I listen to music and this (or these?) song(s) make me want to write while letting myself to disappear in the music.

Shall we start with the -Cry- version first today?
I'll post the English translation here instead of the Romaji lyrics.
It's actually just a drabble; randomly written by a random greedy author.

Hope you will enjoy it.

________________________________________

-Cry-




The steady rising of the scent of summer
I want to feel it next to you

Thirteen years ago.

It was summer.


Those moments that may feel like nothing are
Treasures worth more than jewels
Let this moment be enveloped in soft sunlight
And be protected for always
 

The sun was setting down as the moon appeared on the sky.
Our footsteps were left on the sand as we walked side by side.
You let your tears rolled as I gave a smile.

In my heart, I was praying that the time would stop eternally.


Even though those days
May be imprisoned in darkness
I'm believing in you
Even though it may be unforgivable


Day by day. Night by night.
Flowers bloomed. Summer breeze gone. Leaves fell. Snowflakes melted.
 
You wanted to forget but couldn't.


Please stay shining
Stay and smile here for always


I'm sorry. I'll go.

You kept saying that. You always wrote that. You never stopped thinking that.
Just shine. Just stay. Just smile.


Please don't cry
Please listen to me
Please don't be afraid, I won't do anything
I'll cry with you, for you
Please, don't be scared


It's okay.

I had forgiven you. I'd cry with you. I'd be there for you.
Please listen to me. Please don't be afraid. Please be here.


The cry of the summer
Drowns out my voice
Even a small bit is alright, please don't cry
I'll forgive you, please don't cry


So far yet I still could hear you cry.
Too dark but I still wanted you to shine.
Broken and fragile.

You're forgiven.


The cicadas say it's too late
But I still reach out to you
Please believe in me
I want to say, "You don't have to cry anymore"


I was still reaching out to you.

It was summer again today.



-End-

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

‡ It Was Never Me ‡

It was never me.

When we met for the first time and he told me his name, I felt butterflies in my stomach.
I thought it was the beginning of one forever happiness and he thought of me as a special girl.

It was never me.

When he looked for me at night, asking what I was doing, bringing up random topic between us.
I thought it's a way how he wanted us to know each other better, because I was a special one.

It was never me.

When he asked me to watch a movie together just out of boredom.
I thought my heart would stop beating when he laughed at how random he was to invite me all of a sudden that I couldn't stop to wonder if he saw me the way I saw him.

It was never me.

When he told me about what made him mad or sad.
I thought it's because he believed me more than everyone, knowing that he was not an extrovert person.

It was never me.

When he agreed to meet up with me on Christmas' Eve, to have a dinner and watch a movie together.
I thought it was a special date, between him and someone who was irreplaceable for him.

But it was never me.

When he started to talk about this girl.
When he smiled just by telling me her name.
When he told me everything about her.
When he said he would go on a date with her next week.
When he blushed slightly upon my question.

"Do you love her?"

It was never me.

I smiled. I faked happy laughter. I cheered him up. I gave my best luck.

Because it was never me.

Until the day I met this one guy who made me realize something.

It was never me.
Who didn't belong to him.
Who didn't mean to be with him.
Who shouldn't stay with him.
Who couldn't make him happy.
Who would be his one and only.

It was never him who belonged with me.
It was never him who meant to be with me.
It was never him who should stay with me.
It was never him who could make me happy.
It was never him who would be my one and only.

It was you.

__________



Being random and I just wrote down whatever I had in mind.
Oh no, I'm not falling in love with someone at the moment.
It's more like... falling out of love.

Well, it's almost Valentine's Day but, well, let's just say I'm currently healing my heart.
Like what I stated in my older post here, I would never stop loving anyone but, perhaps, the level had stopped to increase.
That would be the best statement to describe it.

It would be a lie to say it didn't hurt when the one you really cared about didn't see you the way you saw them.
But to know that they are happy, it feels really good.

Anyway, what I'm trying to point out from the random words above is the fact that you might think your world has collided when this one person break your heart.
However, one day, you would realize that everything happens for a reason.

On the day you understand that hearts are made to be loved.

Have you gone through that day?



Credit goes to here

Friday, March 26, 2010

‡ Nothing to Fear ‡


There's nothing to fear --- you're as good as the best,
As strong as the mightiest, too.
You can win in every battle or test;
For there's no one just like you.
There's only one you in the world today;
So nobody else, you see,
Can do your work in as fine a way:
You're the only you there'll be !

So face the world, and all life is yours
To conquer and love and live:
And you'll find the happiness that endures
In just the measure you give;
There's nothing too good for you to possess,
Nor heights where you cannot go:
Your power is more than belief or guess ---
It is something you have to know.

There is nothing to fear --- you can and you will.
For you are the invincible you.
Set your foot on the highest hill ---
There's nothing you cannot do.

__________

Hari ini cuman mau ngasih bacaan yang gw harap bisa menginspirasi kalian semua.
Dikutip dari sini,
gw hari ini ga comment banyak. :D

Wajar bagi seorang manusia untuk merasakan yang namanya takut:
takut kehilangan, takut mencoba, takut berbuat salah.
Itu manusiawi.

Tapi saat rasa takut itu menutupi semua kelebihanmu,
menutupi segala kebaikanmu,
yakinkan dirimu tidak ada yang perlu kamu takuti.

Kamu bisa.
Kamu akan mencoba.
Kamu pasti berhasil.
Yakinkan dirimu.

Kalau kamu gagal,
coba lagi dan jangan menyerah. :)



+Lyrics of the day+
I see you dancing
Your song is clear
You've got to show me, got to show me
There's nothing to fear
Nothing to fear
(Nothing to Fear by Chris Rea)

Friday, March 12, 2010

‡ Somewhere, Somehow, Someone ‡


Setelah hampir 1 minggu gw ga ngepost apa-apa,

hari ini gw mau ngepost hal singkat ajah sih.

Seminar HIMSISFO 2010 telah berlalu.
Masih ada HIMSISFO COMPETITION 2010 yang harus gw tangani;
permulaan dibuka dengan Show Your Talent akan dimulai Sabtu depan.

Event-event lain juga masih ada;
jadi harus tetap lebih semangat dari sekarang! :D


Judul postingan gw x ini adalah 3 kata yang sering terlintas di kepala gw akhir-akhir ini;
mungkin lebih ke arah renungan ajah sih.


Somewhere, there are some persons, talking about us...

Somehow, we say that they're wrong, but don't we do the same?

Someone may say people are so unique...

and here we are,
somewhere we don't know,
somehow we can lose our directions,
and someone may or may not help us.



Ga jelas yaaa? Haha.
Ga tau kenapa tiba-tiba kepikiran itu ajah sih.


Keep your spirit, people! :)

Do things that make you happy and do stuff that can make people get happy along with you! :D



+Lyrics of the day+
On any morning you can tell the story
Cos I only ever give myself a fright
But if you're feeling just alright
Please don't dress it all up in love
You think that this will do for now
Someone somewhere somehow
(Someone Somewhere Somehow by The Panics)


Today is the tomorrow I worried about yesterday
And today was such a lovely day,
that I wondered why I worried about today yesterday.
So today I am not going to worry about tomorrow.
There may not be a tomorrow anyway.
So today I am going to live as if there is no tomorrow
And I am going to forget about yesterday.

Today is the tomorrow I planned for yesterday
And nearly all my plans for today did not plan out the way I thought they would yesterday.
So today I am forgetting about tomorrow and I will plan for today,
But not too strenuously.
Today I will stop to smell a rose,
I will tell a loved one how much I love her.
I will stop planning for tomorrow and plan to make today the best day of my life.

Today is the tomorrow I was afraid of yesterday,
And today was nothing to be afraid of.
So today I will banish fear of the unknown,
I will embrace the unknown as a learning experience full of exciting opportunities.
Today, unlike yesterday, I will not fear tomorrow.

Today is the tomorrow I dreamed about yesterday,
And some of the dreams I dreamt about yesterday came true today.
So today I am going to continue dreaming about tomorrow
And perhaps more of the dreams I dream today will come true tomorrow.

Today is the tomorrow I set goals for yesterday
And I reached some of those goals today.
So today I am going to set slightly higher goals for today and tomorrow,
And if tomorrow turns out to be like today
I will certainly reach all of my goals one day!

__________

Akhirnya hari ini gw posting lagi dengan mengutip dari Aftherhours Inspirational Stories.
Postingan hari ini juga gw dedikasikan untuk Sandy yang berulang tahun.

Happy birthday.
Wish you all the best.
Sukses dan semangat selalu ya.
:)


Comment gw untuk hari ini juga ga panjang2 amat sih,
tapi postingan x ini ngebahas soal hari kemarin, hari ini, dan hari esok. :)


Terkadang kita berandai-andai tentang hari esok,
takut dengan hari esok yang mungkin berbeda dari pikiran kita,
memimpikan tentang hari esok,
padahal hari ini adalah hari esok yang ada ketika kemarin.

Hari esok akan menjadi hari ini.
Jadi jangan pusingkan hari esok,
justru jalani saja hari ini dengan sebaik-baiknya.

Mengkhawatirkan masa depan yang tidak bisa kita tebak,
memusingkan hari kemarin yang tidak bisa kita ubah,
toh tidak akan membuat hari ini menjadi lebih baik.

Belajar dari hari kemarin,
jalani hari ini sebaik mungkin,
demi hari esok yang lebih baik lagi. :)



+Lyrics of the day+
Ain't no, ain't no yesterdays
Forget tomorrow, forget it all
We've got today.
Oh there ain't no yesterdays
Forget tomorrow, forget it all
(Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow by Zakk Wylde & Black Label Society)

Saturday, January 16, 2010

‡ Do It Anyway ‡


This poem was written by Mother Theresa and is engraved on the wall of her home for children in Calcutta.



People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will forget tomorrow,
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and
it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got ... anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God,
It never was between you and them anyway.

__________

Dikutip dari Inspiration Motivation,
ini adalah sebuah bacaan yang bisa menginspirasi kita untuk hidup lebih baik jika kita mau melakukan yang lebih baik pula.

Memaafkan mereka yang berbuat salah dengan tulus;
memaafkan adalah langkah awal bagi mereka yang menyesal dan langkah lebih maju untk mereka yang berbuat egois tapi tidak sadar kesalahan mereka.

Tetap berbuat baik meski orang telah menganggapmu buruk;
jangan biarkan label buruk membuatmu benar-benar menjadi buruk juga.

Capai yang terbaik, lewati kemungkinan terburuk,
jadilah sukses dengan caramu.

Mungkin berbuat jujur kadang membuatmu dibodohi orang-orang tertentu,
tapi tetaplah berbuat jujur;
jangan takut bertindak jujur.

Apa yang kamu bangun dan dirikan bertahun-tahun mungkin bisa diruntuhkan semalam oleh orang lain,
tapi tetaplah membangun yang kau inginkan.

Saat kau bahagia, bisa jadi ada yang tidak senang dengan kebahagiaanmu,
tapi... tetaplah bahagia.

Kebaikan yang kamu lakukan hari ini mungkin akan dilupakan orang lain,
tapi tetaplah berbuat baik.

Berikan dan lakukan yang terbaik untuk dunia,
walau mungkin bagi mereka, apa yang kamu lakukan bukanlah yang baik.
Tetap lakukan yang terbaik sebisamu.

Lagipula toh pada akhirnya semuanya kembali ke kamu dan juga Tuhan.


Lakukan yang bisa kamu lakukan. :)



+Lyrics of the day+
You can spend your whole life buildin'
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This worlds gone crazy
And it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away
love em anyway

God is great but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway, yeah

You can pour your soul out singin'
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway, yeah, yeah

I sing
I dream
I love anyway, yeah
(Do It Anyway by Martina McBride)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

‡ True Love ‡


I love you as I love to walk in this world.

My love is pure.
I love you because I love you.

But I don't have a wanted to have you.
Just to know that I love you.

Together through this world.

Just do what you wanna do.
Just do it.

I just ask one thing from you:

Don't ever forget me
'Cause I love you.

The love isn't owning,
just believing...

that you are my best friend.

__________

Dikutip dari Afterhours Inspirational Stories,
ga ada komentar apapun dari gw hari ini.

Cuma mau share sebuah quote,
sebuah gambar,
dan sebuah lagu yang istimewa banget. :)


"Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must.
Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love.
And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts,
but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after."




+Lyrics of the day+
I've seen the tears and the heartache
And I've felt the pain
I've seen the hatred
And so many lives lost in vain

And yet through this darkness
There's always a light that shines through
And takes me back home
Takes me back home

高い壁の向こう
何があっても
逃げたくない
歩き続けよう
忘れないで

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
愛のために
強くなれる
あなたがいる限り

涙であふれる心を
寄り添うように抱いてくれた
気づけばひとりではなかった
風の日も
雨の日も

And I see for one fleeting moment
A paradise under the sun
I drift away
And I make my way back to you
忘れないで

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
何度だって
やり直せる
明日がある限り

人は傷つくたびに
本当に大切な
答えに近づけるから

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
愛のために
強くなれる
あなたがいる限り

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
何度だって
やり直せる
明日がある限り

あなたがいる限り
あなたといる限り

生きて行こう
(あなたがいる限り: A World to Believe In by Celine Dion x 伊藤 由奈)

I've seen the tears and the heartache
And I've felt the pain
I've seen the hatred
And so many lives lost in vain

And yet through this darkness
There's always a light that shines through
And takes me back home
Takes me back home

Takai kabe no mukou
Nani ga attemo
Nigetakunai
Arukitsuzukeyou
Wasurenaide

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
Ai no tame ni
Tsuyokunareru
Anata ga iru kagiri

Namida de afureru kokoro wo
Yorisou you ni daite kureta
Kizukeba hitori de wa nakatta
Kaze no hi mo
Ame no hi mo

And I see for one fleeting moment
A paradise under the sun
I drift away
And I make my way back to you
Wasurenaide

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
Nando datte
Yarinaoseru
Ashita ga aru kagiri

Hito wa kizutsuku tabi ni
Hontou ni taisetsu na
Kotae ni chikazukeru kara

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
Ai no tame ni
Tsuyokunareru
Anata ga iru kagiri

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
Nando datte
Yarinaoseru
Ashita ga aru kagiri

Anata ga iru kagiri
Anata to iru kagiri

Ikiteyukou
(Anata Ga Iru Kagiri by Celine Dion x Yuna Ito)

I've seen the tears and the heartache
And I've felt the pain
I've seen the hatred
And so many lives lost in vain

And yet through this darkness
There's always a light that shines through
And takes me back home
Takes me back home

No matter what exists
Beyond that tall wall
I don't want to run away
I'll continue to walk onward
And won't forget

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
For the sake of love
I can become stronger
As long as you are here

when it looked like
my heart would overflow with tears
If I noticed, I was never alone
Even on the windy days
Even on the rainy days

And I see for one fleeting moment
A paradise under the sun
I drift away
And I make my way back to you
I won't forget

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
No matter how many times it takes
It can be redone
As long as there is a tomorrow

Every time people are hurt
The truth is that they'll be brought
Closer to an important answer

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
For the sake of love
I can become stronger
As long as you are here

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
No matter how many times it takes
It can be redone
As long as there is a tomorrow

As long as you're here with me
As long as you're here with me

Let's keep on living

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

‡ Control of Your Heart ‡


A wise and understanding heart does not repay a hurt with a hurt.
In doing so, the heart is diminished.
Fissures form.
Love leaks out.
Every pain given in return for one received,
changes the contents of the heart.
It is no longer defined by love, wisdom, and understanding.
It is redefined by the bearers of hurt and hate,
pain and prejudice,
meanness and madness,
sorrow and sadness.
You give away control of your very own heart.

The despair of being hurt is healed by overcoming it,
not clinging to the hurt and inflicting more of it on the world.
When darkness is added to darkness,
no one can see,
no one can love.
Everyone loses.

Love is not always warm and fuzzy.
Sometimes it's the integrity we hold on to when we're tempted to strike back.
Sometimes it's the honor that keeps us from exchanging the valuable contents of our heart for the harsh satisfaction of lashing back.

No,
the way of love is not always easy,
but when night falls,
dawn is assured.

The integrity and honor of a wise and understanding heart,
rises with the sun of a new day.

"Because you have asked for understanding to discern judgment.
I have given you a wise and understanding heart."
(1 Kings 3:11-12)


Living in love and loving life.

__________

Dikutip dari Afterhours Inspirational Stories.
Hari ini gw gk ngasih komentar panjang.

Perasaan gw juga lagi campur aduk dan gk jelas kenapa.
Harus mencoba mengendalikan hati gw sendiri memang. Haha.

Cinta itu memang tidak mudah,
sama seperti hidup.

Jadi...
LET IT BE. :)


+Lyrics of the day+
Datanglah sayang dan biarkan ku berbaring
Di pelukanmu walaupun 'tuk sejenak
Usaplah dahiku dan kan kukatakan semua

Bila ku lelah, tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila ku marah, biarkan ku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar

Rasakan resahku dan buat aku tersenyum
Dengan canda tawamu, walaupun 'tuk sekejap
Kar'na hanya engkaulah yang sanggup meredakan aku

Kar'na engkaulah satu-satunya untukku
Dan pastikan kita s'lalu bersama
Kar'na dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku
Dalam susah ataupun senang

Dapatkah engkau s'lalu menjagaku?
Dan mampukah engkau mempertahankanku?

Bila ku lelah, tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila ku marah, biarkan ku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar
(Buat Aku Tersenyum by Sheila on 7)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

‡ Do You Mean It? ‡


Love is within us.
It cannot be destroyed.
It can be ignored.

To the extent that we abandon love we will feel it has abandoned us.
Denying love is our only problem,
and embracing it is the only answer.

Through the power of love,
we can let go of past history and begin again.

Love heals,
forgives,
and makes whole.

__________

Puisi di atas gw kutip dari Afterhours Inspirational Stories.
Hanya pembukaan untuk postingan hari ini.

Mungkin terdengar sedikit melankolis,
sedikit berlebihan dan aneh,
sedikit pesimis banget malah.

Tapi inilah yang lagi gw pikirin.

LOVE is a piece of LIFE.
Seperti yang gw tulis di postingan gw sebelumnya.
Dalam hidup seorang manusia,
ia tak bisa dipisahkan dengan cinta.


Cinta bisa menyakitkan dan menyenangkan,
bisa membuat kita sedih dan senang.

Tetapi membohongi perasaan... itu yang tidak boleh.
Yah gw memang diajarkan untuk jujur pada perasaan,
walaupun kadang gw menolak untuk mengungkapkannya;
takut kelewat jujur. Haha.


Tapi gw setuju dengan satu hal,
yang pernah gw tuangkan juga dalam postingan gw dulu:

Say it if you mean it.


Jadi kalau gw sambungkan dengan cinta,
jadinya pertanyaan seperti ini:

When you say you love me, do you mean it?


Humm, kabar lain,
gw lagi dalam masa menempuh UTS nih.
Semangat untuk semuanya. :)


+Lyrics of the day+
And when you say you love me, do you mean it?
Baby, When you hold me, do you feel it?
Should I believe in magic in your eyes?
I would wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me, like you mean it
Baby, when you hold me. make me feel it.
All I wanna do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times
(When You Say You Love Me by Clay Aiken)


Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask,
I wear a thousand masks,
masks that I am afraid to take off,
and none of them are me.

Pretending is an art that is second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within me as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.

But don't believe me, please.


My surface may seem smooth,
but my surface is my mask,
my ever-warying ever-concealing mask.
Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, in aloneness.

But I hide this.
I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant, sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only salvation,
and I know it.
That is if it is followed by acceptance,
if it is followed by love.
It's the only thing that liberates me,
from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from barriers that I so painstakingly erect.


It's the only thing that will assure me of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.

But I don't tell you this.
I don't dare.
I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh,
and your laugh would kill me.

I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing,
that I'm just no good,
and that you will see this and reject me.
So I play the game, my desperate pretending game,
with a facade of assurance without,
and a trembling child within.


And so begins the parade of masks,
and my life becomes a front.
I idly chatter to you in the suave tones of surface talk.
I tell you everything that is really nothing.
And nothing of what is everything,
of what is crying within me.

So when I'm going through my routine do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.

I dislike hiding.
Honestly.
I dislike the superficial game I'm playing,
the superficial, phony game.
I'd really like to be genuine and spontaneous, and me,
but you've got to help me.


You've got to hold out your hand even when that's the last thing I seem to want, or need.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.

Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings, very feeble wings, but wings.
With your sensitivity and empathy,
and your power to understanding,
you can breathe life into me.

I want you to know that.


I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a co-creator of the person that is me if you choose to.
Please choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble.
You alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic and uncertainty,
from my lonely prison.

So do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach me,
the blinder I strike back.

I fight against the very thing that I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls,
and in this lies my hope... my only hope.


Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands,
but with gentle hands,
for a child is very sensitive.

Who am I you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man and I am every woman you meet.

__________

Dikutip dari Afterhours Inspirational Stories,
hari ini gw gk ngasih opini apapun koq.
Cukup dibaca di atas dan gw rasa itu dah cukup panjang deh. Haha.

Apakah yang gw kutip di atas adalah tentang gw?
Mungkin... atau tidak.
Entahlah. Haha.
Cukup diingat bahwa kadang manusia tidaklah seperti yang kita lihat... :)


Di sini mau ngucapin Happy Birthday juga bwt Carter.

Maybe it's different than last year,
but I just want to say a very happy 21st birthday to you.

Wish you all the best. :)


+Lyrics of the day+
Sebelumnya tak ada yang mampu
Mengajakku untuk bertahan di kala sedih
Sebelumnya kuikat hatiku
Hanya untuk aku seorang
Sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya semua bimbang tangis kesepian

Sebelumnya tak mudah bagiku
Tertawa sendiri di kehidupan yang kelam ini

Sebelumnya rasanya tak perlu
Membagi kisahku saat ada yang mengerti
Sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya semua bimbang tangis kesepian

Bila suatu saat kau harus pergi
Jangan paksa aku tuk cari yang lebih baik
Karena senyummu menyadarkanku
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhirku

Kau buat aku bertanya
Kau buat aku mencari
Tentang rasa ini
Aku tak mengerti Akankah sama jadinya
Bila bukan kamu
Lalu senyummu menyadarkanku
Kau cinta pertama dan terakhirku
(Cinta Pertama dan Terakhir by Sherina)

Monday, October 12, 2009

‡ Love Makes The World Go Round ‡


Love isn’t tenderness it is in his smile;
It isn’t what saves our souls
or what makes the mighty Nile.

Love is when your thinking
about everything you’ve done
.

Love is when you’ve realized you love him,
even when he’s gone.

Love can make you cry,
Love can also make you die.

You can be careless when in love,
And you may look down
on things from above
.

Love is tasteful, love is tactful,
love is ignorance, love is bliss.

Love can make you scream with pain,
Scream with happiness again and again.

Hurtful, scornful, doubtful love.
Cruel and sick and evil love.

Love has many ways of being descried,
Each are as amazing as the next that are described.

Love is what makes your heart pound,
Love is also what makes the world go round.

(Shelby Simpson)

__________

Dikutip dari lovefatedestiny.com
Hari ini ngasih postingan tentang puisi cinta singkat ajah.

Bahwa cinta bisa mengubah banyak hal,
membuat banyak hal manis dan pahit menjadi satu dalam hari kita.

Melakukan sesuatu dalam tindakan membahagiakannya,
menikmati saat-saat bersama orang yang kita cintai,
membuat hati kita berdebar-debar.

Dan ada satu kalimat dari teman gw, Chris:

"Have you ever been lifted up so high and then thrown crashing down?"


+Lyrics of the day+
My wish for you, sweet happy life
May all the days of the year that you live be laughing days
With all my heart, sweet happy life
And may the night times that follow the day be dancing nights
Stars for your smile, moons for your hair
And someone’s wonderful love for your loving heart to share
My wish for you, sweet happy life
May all your sorrows be gone and your heart begin to sing
And if a wish can make it be
I wish you spend everyday of your happy life with me

Stars for your smile, moons for you hair
And someone’s wonderful love for your loving heart to share
My wish for you, sweet happy life
May all your sorrows be gone and your heart begin to sing
And if a wish can make it be
I wish you spend everyday of your happy life with me
(Sweet Happy Life by Peggy Lee)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

‡ Around the Corner ‡


Around the corner I have a friend...

In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friend's face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell,
And he rang mine.

But, we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say "I will call on Jim"
"Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner!- yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram, sir"
"Jim died today."

And that's what we get and deserve in the end.

Around the corner, a vanished friend.


Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time,
it might be too late.

Seize the day.
Never have regrets.

And most importantly,
stay close to your friends and family
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

__________

Dikutip dari Touching Love Stories and Story,
hari ini akhirnya gw ngepost sebuah bahasan tentang kehidupan dan cinta.

Err, sebenarnya bukan bermaksud berlebihan alias lebay,
tapi sebenarnya karena banyak membaca cerita ini,
kadang gw suka takut mendengar kata "NANTI".

Maksudnya itu misal ada masalah antara gw dan orang lain,
semua berkata, "Nanti juga dah mendingan."
Gw takut kata "NANTI" itu gk akan datang.

Mungkin terkesan berlebihan dan melankolis banget,
but it did happen once in my life...

Tidak ada yang bisa menyangka apa yang akan terjadi dalam hidup.
Tapi janganlah menunda-nunda apa yang menurutmu penting.
Sebelum semuanya menghilang. :)


"Death is a challenge.
It tells us not to waste time.
It tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other."
(Leo Buscaglia)


+Lyrics of the day+
I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
(Apologize by One Republic)